There is so many bad situations that I’ve put myself through the years that now that everything that is bad happening to me feels like a normal thing. I did not really wanted to be this way in the past. But my life is heading the wrong direction and it’s my entire fault. There is nowhere to go but down and I want to pay for all of my sins right now and hopefully start over again with someone who can help me feel better at the end of the day. But no matter what I do I can’t really convince a lady that I am attracted to at all and the reason is very obvious. They can see what I am as a person and that is a loser. I’ve wasted so many years in my life and now that I have nothing and anyone it’s hard to start I’ve. But I deserve all this hardship. People telling me that I am a miserable and fat all of the time is making me more miserable. I don’t want to defend myself anymore because I want to be this way until the very end. It’s my entire fault that my life has turned out in to a very sad one. And I think that at the end of the day if I can turn things around it are going to be a really great thing for me. But that day might never end and I am fine with it. Maybe it’s my destiny to become a loser all my life.
That’s just how it’s mean to me and I should start to feel that way because at the end of the day I just want everything to change and be able to become a better life for me. That’s why I felt like a new person when I gotten myself the chance to date a woman who I thought would just run away once she would realise that I am a loser. But a London escort never really thought about running away from me at all. I’ve learned through the time that we are together that she is a very trust worthy woman and I think about her a lot. She’s not really able to help me out of things would continue to fail in my life. But at the end of the day I just would hope that one day my life would change for the better. My relationship with a London escort is very important to me now. Even if it looks like I don’t have a chance with this London escort. I am willing to humiliate myself endless of times just to make her say yes to me. it would be extremely foolish to not think that she is the kind of person who can give me so much happiness in my life cause in the short time that we were together I’ve learned a lot about myself more than ever before. I just know that she might be the one.